SIDDHI LĀLASĀ
by Śrīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura
by Śrīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura
(Note—These next two songs of Śrīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura are written under the heading of Siddhi-lālasā. Lālasā means "to hanker in great expectation," and siddhi means "perfection." Hankering in great expectation to achieve a perfectional stage is called Siddhi-lālasā. A devotee never has any desire for material enjoyment, heavenly birth, mystical powers, liberation or even the four superior stages of liberation such as attaining equal opulence to the Lord, having the same form as Lord Viṣṇu, always being in the presence of the Lord, or living on the same planet as the Lord in the spiritual sky. The hankering of the pure devotee is simply that he will become the servant of the Lord unconditionally. That perfectional stage is the stage to be desired).
[1]
kabe gauravane, suradhunī-taṭe,
'hā rādhe hā kṛṣṇa' bole'
kāṅdiyā veḍābo, deha-sukha chāḍi,
nānā latā-taru-tale
'hā rādhe hā kṛṣṇa' bole'
kāṅdiyā veḍābo, deha-sukha chāḍi,
nānā latā-taru-tale
[2]
śvapaca-gṛhete, māgiyā khāibo,
pibo sarasvatī-jalo
puline-puline, gaḍāgaḍi dibo,
kori' kṛṣṇa kolāhala
pibo sarasvatī-jalo
puline-puline, gaḍāgaḍi dibo,
kori' kṛṣṇa kolāhala
[3]
dhāma-vāsī-jane, pranati koriyā,
māgibo kṛpāra leśa
vaiṣṇava-caraṇa-reṇu gāya mākhi',
dhari' avadhūta-veśa
māgibo kṛpāra leśa
vaiṣṇava-caraṇa-reṇu gāya mākhi',
dhari' avadhūta-veśa
[4]
gauḍa-vraja-vane, bheda nā dekhibo,
hoibo varaja-vāsī
dhāmera svarūpa, sphuribe nayane,
hoibo rādhāra dāsī
hoibo varaja-vāsī
dhāmera svarūpa, sphuribe nayane,
hoibo rādhāra dāsī
When, oh when, will I chant on the bank of the Ganges in the land of Navadvīpa? O Rādhā, O Kṛṣṇa, when will I wander among the creepers and trees with tears in my eyes and forget my bodily comforts?
When will I be satisfied by taking some food from the untouchable men who live here and there and by drinking the water of the Sarasvati? When will I roll to and fro on the banks of the river, raising an uproar of "Kṛṣṇa! Kṛṣṇa!"
When will I bow down to the inhabitants of the holy place of Navadvīpa and obtain a bit of their mercy? When will I wear the dress of the paramahaṁsas and wear the dust of the feet of the Vaiṣṇavas on my body?
When will I see the inhabitants of Navadvīpa as nondifferent from the inhabitants of Vṛndāvana, and when shall I become a Vrajavāsī, too? When will I see the true form of the transcendental realm opening before my eyes, and when will I attain the service of Śrī Rādhārāṇī?